New day new date

I did end up getting so much accomplished yesterday.  Luke helped me and we got rid of a huge truckful of junk and garbage.  I sold quite a bit too so all in all it was a great day.

Today my mood is a bit grey.  It's a beautiful sunny day.  There's a nice breeze and I had a great walk with Vicky this morning.  I do not feel up to snuff though.  I meditated for an hour and it was a great rest but it hasn't helped me think more positively.  I am chuck full of obsession today!.  I don't know why, but I want to smoke.  I know the nicotine is gone.  I know it's filthy, dirty, stinky, expensive and dangerous.  I know I can't be around Jenni and Maria if I smoke.  I know I know I know!!!!  But majorly PMO I can't get the thoughts out of my mind.  Perhaps I'm just bored and a nice walk on the seawalk with Phil and a coffee at Fogg Dukkers will make all the difference.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.  I truly believe it.  Now Satan can go away and leave me in peace.  I can do all things through Christ Jesus who strengthens me.  Amen

Little Ollie Bear

Last night we went for a walk on the Seawalk and a coffee at Fogg Dukkers.  My little Ollie Bear just didn't want to walk.  Once he gets going and finally comes to the realization that my will is going to be done not his, he walks just fine.  It's just getting him going.  Maybe I need a treat on the end of a stick to motivate him.  Anyway, there was live music at Fogg Dukkers and it was such a warm night, we stayed quite a while to just look at the ocean and enjoy the music.  It was absolutely beautiful.

This morning I went for a walk with Vicky.  Ollie (mind you I just grabbed him out of his bed), just would not get going.  I dragged him along the driveway and had to pull and tug to get him moving.  Vicky had a good laugh about it.  I was telling him that I wasn't lying.  Dogs really do love to walk.  They actually get excited when they get to go.  It is a fun thing I am doing with him.  He doesn't buy it.  Eventually he started walking and I praised him for what a good boy he was being walking so well and he, well no other way to describe it, pranced.  He looked like a Clydesdale highstepping.  Now my little baby is sound asleep and loving it.

I've got things to do, but very little motivation.  I really should just pick a task and get at it.  I don't think I'm even motivated enough to write a chore list.  Seems a bit like a chore in itself to me.  I only have 4.5 hours of War and Peace to read and I think I will make a coffee and read a little.  It's off to Costco tonight for dinner ($1.50 foot long hotdog with pop) and some shopping.  I told Phil I would take him out for dinner tonight.  I hope he thinks it's as cool as I think it is to get dinner for $3.15 taxes included for two people.  We'll just have to see. 

Oh my goodness

Oh my goodness, my son just slipped in tonight at dinner that he and Meghan have moved in together with her kids.  He has a family now and I'm not supposed to make a big deal about it!!!  Major life change and he is just so non-chalant about it.  Oh well, I can be cool......okay maybe not, but I can control myself.

So I am 50 (hence the red hat) and my good friend and birthday buddy Jan made me a red hat so I can join the Red Hat Society.  I don't know why it's so important for me to belong to that club, but it just is.  50 and rockin a red hat, oooooh yeah!!!

Everything is going great right now.  My health isn't the best, but I'm not letting it stop me from living.  Yeah, I pass out, yeah, it hurts when I hit the ground, but until they tell me there is something they can do about it, I'm just going to go on business as usual.  I do baking, which was a great hit today, and I keep the house pretty clean.  I walk every morning and most evenings too.  I just can't stand in one place or be still cause then I go kerplunk.  I am expecting my prescription support hose any day so that should help to keep my blood pressure up.  The timing is not the best cause it is so hot right now, but if it helps keep me on my feet, I'll sweat.  I would love to be able to drive, but that's not to be so......radical acceptance baby!!!!

All my kids are doing really well.  Tiff is an amazing mommy and Jenni and Maria are the cutest little girls ever.  I get to see them in less than a month.  I can't wait!!!!!  Phil is working on the house so we can sell it and move into a condo and I have the best friends ever :).  So, today, in this moment, everything is going great and I can see the blessings God has bestowed on us.  Praise God Almighty for love and joy that lives in my life.